I Wish......

Sometimes i wish i am able to help my family. Things aren't easy for us, in fact, it has not been easy for all of us.
I wish i could help mum with her problems. It's been really hard for her, especially these last few years. She had to stand by herself, facing all those problems. Well, i was there trying to help her. So did my brothers & sisters, my grandma, my aunts, my uncle. Still, they cannot be there all the time. And now i'm having my own family, i can't be there for her all the time also. Now she's facing another problem, and i really wish i could just take her and my sister out of there. Wish i could jess help her more.

And my dad....wish i could open his eyes, and heart. Wish i could help him also. But it's really hard to understand him, when i thought i knew him all these times.

But now we, me and my love-of-my-life are facing some problems also. And still, i can do nothing but being there for him. Wish i could do more to help him. Because it concerns our little family's life also. I am so sad seeing him last night. We've been married for...not even a year, but i can see that he's been under pressure. Not only thinking of our situation, but also his co-workers and their family. One big responsibility of being the no.1 man in his work. Hope i can be his strength, his spirit... coz i love him so much...

(Janet, 10:22am April 12th 2006)