Wow!
It's been almost a YEAR since my last posting. I forgot the name of this blog and my password...how stupid! I finally remember it all few days ago, after talking to my hubby about writing in blogs.

Let's see...
My last blog was about my early pregnancy. Now, i had the baby with us; a beautiful, healthy baby girl. She's now 6 months old, already a smart and active lil' girl. I call her (in my blogs) Michelle...from Michelin, a brand of car tire. It was my friend -my baby's godmother- who said that she look like that brand's icon: a doll with lumps allover its body. So We started to call her miss michelin..michelle...hehehe

Thank God, i practically had a wonderful pregnancy and birth. The early months was hard but i managed to go through it quite easily. But this last month was not so good. Seems i started to have some kind of emotional problem, probably due to exhaustion, hormonal changes, and my baby's development. I was suppose to be happy and grateful about michelle's development, but somehow along with that i got more and more exhausted.
She started to crawl and aware of her surroundings; she's so eager to learn what's this and that; and she wanted me to be around her most of the time. It's hard to have sometime with my hubby, just the 2 of us, and so does having some time for myself, except after she had her nite-time sleep. We both usually got too tired to do things.

I've read some articles about postpartum distress syndrome -commonly known as the baby-blues syndrome-, and it turns out that this syndrome can last to years after a woman's gave birth. The cause of this syndrome was unknown, but the article wrote that some of it are hormonal changes, isolation, sleep deprivation, and lack of help from partner.
Well, i guess in my case it's the 3 causes mentioned first that turn me into this...bitch!
Because my hubby was really helpful, from the beginning of my pregnancy, during the 1st months after birth, and even these last week when i'm being so difficult to face and understand.
Another cause is, i guess, problems that my parents having these last 7 years, that i have to face also because it seems that i'm the only person who's willing to listens to them yacking about others.

Hhhhh.....hope i can make myself stronger and pass this irritating situation, so i can take a good care of my family -and myself, again.

ps: talking about 'taking care of myself', i suddenly think of having a masseur home for an aromatherapy massage. Hmmm....sounds lovely!!!